Saturday, July 4, 2009

Climb


There's an indoor rock climbing gym that my friend and I regularly visit. Regularly is an exaggeration perhaps, occasionally. It's really enjoyable, so I strongly recommend everyone to try it once at least. See what it's like.

There are many many courses inside, ranging from beginner climbs to very advanced climbs. You can further add the difficulty of your climbs by selecting certain colors of rocks to hold and step on, as well as timing yourself. Bouldering is also an option for those who like it. Recommended times to go are in the afternoon. Mornings and evenings are busy times, with many intermediate to advanced climbers, making it difficult to switch to a course without waiting and/or people watching, something that may intimidate casual climbers or beginners! Might I also mention that you need a climbing partner!



How it works: No, you don't die when you fall off. Yes, it's safe. You have one climber and one person below belaying. The role of the belayer is to catch you if you fall, not literally, but through a pulley system, they can lock the rope attached to your harness and stop you from falling, making this sport relatively safe. Firstly, climb into your harness, both the climber and belayer. there should be a rope on a pulley for each course. Attach the two D clips onto the bridge of your harness for climber, and one D clip to the bridge of the belayer's harness. They should both be secure and checked before the climb begins. You climb, up and up and up. After the climb, the climber sits back on the harness, and the belayer lowers you down slowly (or quickly). Easy.

Willpower and body strength. The two essential elements needed to conquer any climb. It is very easy to give up part way through the course. No proper grabs or holds, the foot keeps slipping, or your body aching and screaming at you to stop before it gives up. To conquer a climb or a course, is to conquer yourself. Literally.

Many a times have my body nearly given way from multiple climbs, telling me to stop and give up. My will to continue and perservere has pulled me through many times through tricky sections. To attempt that reach, to do a small hop, to keep going, to scramble to the next one. Every single, every single time I am able to make it through a section, I am amazed at myself. It feels as if it's purely my will that got me there, pushing my muscles to perform in an impossible state.


There are a few times where I have given up. My will or my body wasn't strong enough to complete the climb, and to be honest, it feels more bad than good than to let go and tell your partner that's it. It's disappointing. After all, you start a climb thinking you can, and if you can't, that's just really, a failure. How you take this failure varies from individual to individual. Some become negatively affected, "I can't do this climb...", "rock climbing isn't my thing". Some use this as a motivation to improve. I wouldn't say I'm purely of the latter, but I do make a mental note of it and try it again another time or later.

How high you can climb depends entirely on your comfort level, and where you strive to finish. Nobody can dictate how far you can or cannot go. I've realized sometimes some goals are unrealistic on my own part. As a result, I had to change my goal during the climb at times. "Pass this section", "reach for one more". It's really like life. You never know how ready you are to achieve your goals unless you're trying. Don't give up, alter your goals so they're achievable. Don't lower it so it's easy though. Those who aim at nothing are sure to hit. Push yourself. Goals should motivate you, help you better yourself and make you feel good. Not just purely make you feel good.

The harnesses are really safe. Rock climbing is safe. Why do people become afraid? I was thinking about this over and over again whilst commencing this blog and I've come to one conclusion. They're afraid to fall. Trust issue with the belayer? Maybe. Safety issue, not wanting injury? Possibly. I am not immune to this. It is scary up there I admit. However, I would say, for me, it's the fear of letting go. During a particular climb recently I realized I was actually afraid of slipping off due to lack of strength. I didn't want to let go. I wanted to keep on going. I was afraid of failing. The fear of not realizing your goals or dreams, or to give up half way. To admit defeat. That's my main reason for fearing. Most people fear of losing or giving up. That's understandable and normal. However failing is not the end. Like the harness and the belay, if you slip, it's there to catch you. Catch your breath, keep going, or give up. There are always second chances. Not great, but at least you dont' fall all the way down.

There is one particular moment that you allow yourself willingly, volunatarily to be vulnerable. At the end of the climb. You simply let go, sit back on the harness and let the belayer lower you down. Trust does help here.

Trust. Hmm. Many a times will your climbing partner or you assist one another (hopefully anyway!). There are times where you are so absorbed in your own tasks you cannot see particular holds that he or she below may be able to see. Guide them, or be guided. It helps, it's easier. People are there to guide you in life, whether you take the advice or not is entirely up to you. Is it plausible for you? Is it suited for you? Only you may know. He or she cannot make you grab it, you must reach for it if you think it's a reasonable suggestion. Too far out of reach? Tell them. Everyone is different. As much as the person below tries to help, the only one that can continue to climb your own course is you. You are in control.

Self improvement? All to easy here. What you couldn't do before, try it this time. Was your body too weak? Exercise and condition your body. Pass this section, now pass that section of the climb. Couldn't climb it fast last time? Improve your time. A million goals can be made, there are so many ways you can improve if you so desire. As I mentioned. How far up you climb, how many you climb, depends entirely on the individual.

A myriad of emotions and lessons learned. The willpower to push you on. The determination to succeed. The fear of defeat. The fear of giving up. Setting your own goals. To guide. To be guided. To reach. To improve. Rock climbing is enjoyable. It's a great sport, but it really helps me to get focused again. It really does have a lot to teach. One at a time, one hold by one hold, one reach for one reach. We slowly go up. A japanese manga said once to me: to be great at something, we must fall, for we can easily give up climbing, whereas if we fell into it, we are unable to stop, despite its hardships and challenges. Makes sense doesn't it? I think to climb is better. It's hard. You learn.

Hitting the top. Achieving what we set out. Pure ecstacy. Pure... satisfaction.

Sunday, June 21, 2009

Dependable emotions

To what degree are we willing to put up with someone? For how long? What makes us get over our differences and move on in life? What enables us to realize that this argument is only fleeting and short? What makes us know that deep down, the other party is important to us?

Why? What? How?

To love and to trust. Illogical. Unbelievable. Difficult.


Inexplicable

Thursday, June 18, 2009

The Brain Factory - No talking please!


Accepting the fact that I simply could not focus when I study at home, my brother and I decided to head off to the local library today. Our local library isn't far, a 5 min drive. It's a great place to study. In fact, during university and high school exam periods, it is bursting with eager, young and hopeful students. Or students that realize the very probable and grim fact that they may fail the upcoming exams. I would say I belong in the latter.


Our library is divided into two main study sections.

The "noisy" section: close to the books, where a number of tables allows you to chat, discuss and terrorize the public... From experience, the "noisy" section is a wild, unruly, and, a natural habitat for high school boys and girls. These two species co-exist in this habitat solely to meet one another and attempt to mate. Why in the library? Well, it serves as a good excuse for both their parents and for their guilty conscience for not studying.

Then there's the "silent" section in libraries. They happen to be the better places to get focused and study. The main reason why I find studying in the library so effective is that it is free of distractions, noise and you have other people motivating and edging you to study. The atmosphere is great. In fact it's so great, that if you arrive too late from when it opens, all the seats in the silent section are taken up.

Arrived early! Hasn't filled up yet


Not just a brain factory, where memories, thoughts, opinions and knowledge are created and absorbed... The library is also a time machine. Without the distractions, a minute in there is a long time. What seems like 3 hrs of study comes down to possibly 30 minutes. I find one or two full days of solid study in this time machine allows me to revise an entire subject that took a semester to learn.


There is an unspoken code of conduct in the silent area. "No Talking" Really. How much simpler can this instruction be? Nothing but the sound of your brain gears moving can be emitted in the "silent" section. Well, at least, technically. Many a time have I wanted to seriously injure a person for emitting more than an involuntary sound. STOP TALKING. Switch your phone on silent! If you are to answer a call... walk outside! Nothing annoys me more than being disturbed in the middle of an intriguing and engaging calculation of a problem (heh) than someone answering their phone next to you. Well that's not true, crying babies do annoy me more than that... But still?



It's not hard to recognize repeating offenders. My brother and I have come to recognize a certain ring tone that keeps ringing every time we go. I remember sitting there, along with 30 other people, listening to this ring tone for a full 10 min. as the owner had left it unattended on the table and went off somewhere. Despite the extreme annoyance displayed by everyone's faces, the ring tone grows on you. It's actually quite catchy. Do do do do...


These brain factories are my salvation, my safe haven, during exam periods. Whoever thought of putting tables in a house and making everyone stay quiet? Brilliance.

Remember Dr. Evil from Austin Powers? His button that ejected annoying and imbecile people down into a pit of flames below their seat? I really need one.

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Motivation

What exactly is motivation? A drive to do something. A will to continue... to persevere... even in the harshest of conditions.

All successful or distinguished individuals in society paid a cost to accomplish the deeds we deem admirable. Time, money, effort, the list goes on... One should note that despite the possible vast differences from each other, they all possess the motivation and the will to strive for success. To achieve their goals.

Passion.

The driving force for maintaining motivation. Passion allows us to fully dive into what we know is a world of uncertainty and hard work. Passion allows us to chase our dreams... Not to dream, but to actually pursue them. All the countless hours, the pain, the effort... ultimately becomes worthwhile. Without passion... No motivation... No perseverance... No success.

Just reminding yourself you love the activity you're doing, the job you're in, the sport you play, the one thing you wish to excel at; can rekindle that flame of passion you may have forgotten that existed. If such a small ember fuels a larger fire again, the motivation to excel and accomplish... will support you.

Which is where I am now. Where is my motivation to study??!